Daughter of a narcissistic mother
I am a daughter of a narcissistic mother, of the worst kind. I just turned 51 years old, on October 17,2015.
My eyes are no longer "wide shut"...
It was at my daughter's wedding that my eyes were finally opened to my narcissistic mother - and all that I could never understand was validated by a guest to the wedding. This person pointed out what I could never see.
It then hit me ... I realized the weeks leading up to my daughter's wedding ... my mother was prepping and preparing me to be emotionally bankrupt, to ensure that I could not make it through the entire celebration, and I didn't.
This realization devastated me. I was dumbfounded by the heartlessness and evilness of my own mother - a woman I held so near and dear and loved so very much. A woman I thought "always" had my best interests at heart.
The realization that she never has was absolutely devastating to me.
I have suffered unimaginable abuse - emotional and physical in some of the worst ways possible. It's too fresh and too painful for me to go into details here today.
I just wish I had someone to help me heal, then I could tell my story in detail.
This subject (narcissistic abuse) has become near and dear to me and extremely important to get my story out.
I think narcissism should be on the front line of mental health.